Stoned

It’s when I saw you flew.
That’s the time I fell for you.
It’s when you saw me high.
That’s the time you realized.
It’s when we both were flying high.
That’s the time we taught it was real.
It’s when we’ve sober up.
That’s the time we’re back as a stranger.

Amazed

You talked about him so much that night//His life, his works, his romance//You talked, I listened, and sometimes I chuckled for you//You hypnotized me like Lennon did to you//I used to talk mare than people does, but you keep me inside this silence//I was amazed by you//You’re looking for your own version of Ono//You could open your eyes and look here//Then we could walk to any directions//We could write any kind of stories//We could live like Lennon&Ono ♥

Let me be your Yoko Ono, Lennon

Some people say you’re crazy,
But I can’t stay away from you.
I like the way you taught me,
That’s the only thing I hear from you.

You take me to Strawberry fields,
And pick the sweetest for me.
As we walk the Strawberry Hill,
You lay your eyes on me.

From scale one to ten,
You’re an eleven, Lennon.
Keep me on counting,
And let me be your Yoko Ono.

When Chili Changes Everything

Chili changes everything, it does. When you're having an unsalted soup, give it some chili and it'll taste better. When you're having a vapid food, give it some chili and it'll taste better. In fact, chili changes tastes of the food, even increasing the taste. Sometimes I wished I had my own "chili" to make our lives better. When you got problems, give it chili. It may changes or make your problem "taste" better. Get it?

happy birthday norm!

30th of April 2009, my man Norman celebrated his 19th birthday.
After we surprised him and all, me and Odink went upstairs to Thufeil's room and end up taking pictures at Irham's room.

thufeil, irham, odink & me

still, the four of us..

and, the birthday boy join us

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NORMAN!

walk the line

Takdir. Setiap orang pasti punya takdir yang sudah dituliskan untuknya masing-masing. Jodoh, rezeki dan ajal sudah dituliskan oleh Tuhan. Dan dalam Islam, takdir itu sudah dituliskan bahakan sebelum manusia menginjakkan kaki di bumi. Tuhan sudah tahu apa yang akan terjadi nantinya. Apapun, Tuhan pasti sudah tahu, karena Dia adalah yang maha mengetahui segalanya.

Ada takdir yang bisa berubah dan ada yang tidak. Yang tidak bisa berubah adalah jodoh rezeki dan ajal. Dan yang bisa diubah seperti sifat dan pilihan-pilihan hidup. Dari semua yang saya tangkap, Tuhan sudah menyusun semua skenario dan sekarang Ia hanya menonton dan melihat akhir mana yang akan dipilih oleh manusia itu sendiri. Tuhan memberi beberapa jalan yang harus kita tempuh, dan akhirnya akan tergantung dengan apa yang kita pilih.

Hidup kita tidak hanya menyangkiut kita sendiri, tetapi berhubungn dan berkaitan dengan orang lain. Pasti kita akan memberi dampak sekecil apapun terhadap orang lain. Dan begitu juga mereka, sedikit banyak kita akan mendapat dampak dari tiap-tiap keputusan seseorang.

Beberapa keputusan kita buat untuk terus menjalani hidup, tidak jarang kita membuat kesalahan dengan salah memilih. Dengan segala pertimbangan, kia pasti tahu apa yang akan berdampak pada orang lain. Tetapi lagi-lagi pasti kita lebih mementingkan kebahagiaan diri sendiri dibandingkan dengan orang lain. Tidak ada rasa egois dan tidak peduli, tetapi itu adalah hal yang wajar dalam diri manusia.

Apa yang terjadi pada kita ketika kita adalah orang yang terkena dampaknya? Apalagi ketika dampaknya itu besar dan buruk. Apa yang harus kita lakukan? Sama sekali bukan mau kita bila hal buruk menimpa, dan terlebih lagi, bukan karena kesalahan kita sendiri. Kita tidak meminta, kita tidak salah membuat keputusan. Tetapi kita yang harus menanggung semua ini.

Tidak munafik bila terkadang kita mengutuk orang yang membuat keputusan ini sehingga berdampak buruk terhadap kita. Tetapi bila kita terima, mungkin akan jauh lebih baik. Diri kita tidak diselimuti amarah terhadap si pembuat keputusan, dan rasa dendam yang besar. Kita cukup mengganggap segala sesuatunya sebagai sebuah proses pembelajaran yang mungkin, tidak akan kita dapat apabila kita yang memilih jalan kehidupan, karena setiap orang adalah hubungan dengan orang lain.

from the edge of the deep green sea

every time we do this

i fall for her

wave after wave after wave

it's all for her

i know this can't be wrong i say

(and i'll lie to keep her happy)

as long as i know that you know

that today i belong

right here with you

right here with you...

and so we watch the sun come up

from the edge of the deep green sea

and she listens like her head's on fire

like she wants to believe in me

so i try

put your hands in the sky

surrender

remember

we'll be here forever

and we'll never say goodbye...

i've never been so

colourfully-see-through-head before

i've never been so

wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more

and all i want is to keep it like this

you and me alone

a secret kiss

and don't go home

don't go away

don't let this end

please stay

not just for today

never never never never never let me go she says

hole me like this for a hundred thousand million days

but suddenly she slows

and looks down at my breaking face

why do you cry? what did i say?

but it's just rain i smile

brushing my tears away...

i wish i could just stop

i know another moment will break my heart

too many tears

too many times

too many years i've cried over you

how much more can we use it up?

drink it dry?

take this drug?

looking for something forever gone

but something

we will always want?

why why why are you letting me go? she says

i feel you pulling back

i feel you changing shape...

and just as i'm breaking free

she hangs herself in front of me

slips her dress like a flag to the floor

and hands in the sky

surrenders it all...

i whish i could just stop

i know another moment will break my heart

too many tears

too many times

too many years i've cried for you

it's always the same

wake up in the rain

head in pain

hung in shame

a different name

same old game

love in vain

and miles and miles and miles and miles and miles

away from home again...